I had a moment
I guess I’m entitled to have a “moment” sometimes, after all I am human and the strong gets weak too. But its my choice, do I want to be a victim or a victor? I choose to be a victor, in my last journal entry I wrote, b/c I believe God’s word its already predestined that I win. So, I’m going to stop poking my lip out and keep trying for that beautiful baby, inspite of what it looks like.
So what triggered all this? It dawned on me yesterday, I know at least 12 women who are pregnant. I never thought I would be the one having trouble having a baby. I had a woe is me moment. So, working my faith I believe although I have had trouble with pregnancies doesn’t mean that my next pregnancy will have problems. Its been some obstacles, and I’m doing my best to embrace them and look for a lesson in all this. Becoming a mom has been easy for some, but a challenge for me. So when my time comes, I believe will make me a great mom. I’m going to love hard and thank God everyday for my blessing.
Someone I know who is expecting was just rejoicing she made it through her first trimester. That is an exciting time, but forgive me I’m having a hard time sharing the excitement because I cant relate. I pray that I will be able to come around and celebrate and relate in this wonderful experience. I just have to keep reminding myself in these moments that my God has not forgot , He has not forgot his promises.
So what triggered all this? It dawned on me yesterday, I know at least 12 women who are pregnant. I never thought I would be the one having trouble having a baby. I had a woe is me moment. So, working my faith I believe although I have had trouble with pregnancies doesn’t mean that my next pregnancy will have problems. Its been some obstacles, and I’m doing my best to embrace them and look for a lesson in all this. Becoming a mom has been easy for some, but a challenge for me. So when my time comes, I believe will make me a great mom. I’m going to love hard and thank God everyday for my blessing.
Someone I know who is expecting was just rejoicing she made it through her first trimester. That is an exciting time, but forgive me I’m having a hard time sharing the excitement because I cant relate. I pray that I will be able to come around and celebrate and relate in this wonderful experience. I just have to keep reminding myself in these moments that my God has not forgot , He has not forgot his promises.
Replies
Well, I am believing God for great things in 2012. Its been almost 5 months in the new yr and I have not seen anything. But I\'m going to keep believing b/c God still have time this year to do great things. Alot of people I know are popping up pregnant this yr and that\'s good, I know I must be next:) Just b/c it seems like things are at a stand still doesnt mean God is not working. The best is yet to come!
And it continues...Just learned this morning that two more people I know are expecting there second child. God must be in the neighborhood sprinkling baby angel dust:) Lord knows I hope I\'m nxt, please dont pass me by!
I really need this journal therapy today. If you need it too, feel free to chime in. This is weighing heavy on my heart. What do you do when it seems like, God blesses everyone else around you, but you?? It is beginning to be a bit overwhelming, all of these people pregnant around me. I fast and pray and wonder, well what about me?? But it seems in times like these is when I\'m on the verge of my breaking point, God comes through w/ a breakthrough. Will you trust God with me?
This is confirmation I needed today, this maybe for you too who are having a ruff day: \"Just because you dont see a way doesnt mean God doesnt have a way. Keep trusting!\"~Joel Osteen
Sorry I didn\'t see your entry sooner. DailyStrength doesn\'t always have updates when I log in. But today the updates are there. It was nice to read your journal entries.
I\'m believing God with you. He would not allow us to have this desire and not have it fulfilled.
I also think about the lesson learned in all of this. I\'ve had so much time toplan andthinkaboutbeing a mother. I know I will be so grateful and will cherish every moment.
Hey Shawnie, thank you for being in agreement and for your encouraging words. I am feeling a little better today, taking it one day and one step at a time. This week started off rocky. In this season of waiting I believe God is preparing us to be great moms:)