I had a Dream

I've dreamed about Abby but usually I don't see her and she hasn't spoken to me since before the funeral. I had a terribly busy day at work today, rolling out a new phone system. When I got home I was beat, decided to take a quick nap. I dreamed I was in a very foggy place, misty? smoky? whatever, it was very hard to see even a few feet. Then, Abby appeared, we hugged, I kissed her, she smiled, then she turned and said "bye Ken" that's all she said "bye Ken" very sweetly, sort of waved her hand and dissolved in the fog. I awoke crying like a baby. Then I called her cell just to hear her voice, and it was the same voice I'd heard in my dream. It sounded kind of strange to me, maybe it's been so long that I'm forgetting.
It's taken me about an hour to get this far, I don't know if I can finish.
Now I have to close Abby's cell account. No sense paying $50 a month for a phone nobody is using. What am I going to do?
I feel like I'm living in some bizarro world. People swirl around me all happy and excited about Christmas. I plod along like Eeyore. I feel like a turtle surrounded by a flock of birds. What are these people so happy about? Don't they know?
Abby was Jewish (sort of) but pretty agnostic about it. I'm an atheist. Christmas was not a religious holiday for us it was a special time just for us a time for remembering, a time to treat each other special, a special sharing time. Maybe that makes it worse.
But what does it bring If I ain't got you, ain't got ? You don't know what it's like, baby You don't know what it's like
To love somebody To love somebody To love somebody The way I loved you
I live and breathe for you But what good does it do If I ain't got you, ain't got you?