I hope

She knows I want to kill myselfShe gives me drugs LOTS OF DRUGSEnough to easily kill myself and leaves me aloneThe thoughts swirl in my headI want badly to just dieI count the pills over and over I look at them closelyMy mouth waters...I take a handful I sit and close my eyesI feel my body get lighterI want more so badright now I will liveI look at my other handFull of pills I contemplate whats the worst that could happen  I sigh, I cry.I think of all the poor people like mePeople who did not win their fightWho gave in and died because it hurt so bad.I refuse to be a statisticI refuse to hurt my family and friends.I am strong! I Will make it trough this.So can you!! Why does no one help people can be saved...I hope to save someoneHelp them to be brave.