I Guess the Rest I got over the Weekend was a Good Thing

I suppose it wasn't such a Bad Thing to rest, and not do much over the Weekend, because I woke up Very Early this Morning rested and raring to go ! LOL   I must have really needed that Extra Rest over the Weekend. Sometimes I think Your Body tells You when You've have to STOP, and take care of Yourself First, or You'll Never have the Energy to do anything You need to do !I'm NOT a Morning Person at all ! So this is a RARE Thing for Me to be UP, and actually accomplishing Things, BEFORE NOON ! LOL I know to a LOT of You out there, this is probably making You Laugh... and that I don't mind at all... but keep in Mind that the KEY Reason I'm NOT a Morning Person is because about 95 % of the Time I'm HARDLY ABLE to Sleep at Night at ALL, because of the PAIN in My Knees ! Many Times I'll end up staying UP ALL NIGHT Long, and then Napping ON and OFF during the Day Time ! I HATE doing that, but What Else can You do when You weren't able to Sleep at Night ? I've tried Tylenol PM, but even that's NOT enough to help Me Sleep with the Extreme Pain I'm in at Night ! I just end up being EXTREMELY GROGGY the Entire Next Day whenever I've taken Tylenol PM.  I'm HOPEFUL that sometime in the Near Future I'll find a New Doctor that will actually LISTEN TO ME, and will give Me what I really Need to deal with the PAIN I'm in Every Day from Both of My Knees ! I goofed recently, and picked a New Doctor, but He turned out to be ALL WRONG in Many Ways. I won't go into ALL of it, but 2 KEY Things were that I didn't feel that He Truly LISTENED to ME, and the Other Thing was that His Office is on the 2nd Floor of a Medical Building ! Trying to get up to His Office - for the Very First, and Probably LAST Appt. I'll have with Him - was SO HARD ON ME because of My Knees, I thought I was going to PASS OUT FROM THE PAIN !!!!! With the Combo of the PAIN in My Knees, and My Asthma, I thought I was going to KEEL OVER... LITERALLY ! It took Me about 30 Minutes just to be able to Breathe normally, once I got into His Office ! I can't go through that Every Time I have an appt. ! NO WAY !But Anyways... Back to TODAY... Today feels like it's going to be a GREAT DAY ! I feel Positive, and Upbeat, and lately I haven't been Missing My EXBF AT ALL !!!!! In Fact, whenever I Think about Him at all it's in ANGER, more than anything else ! If My Mind wanders to any Thoughts of what He Put Me through when He was Here with Me, I start to get ANGRY about it.... and I also think... " HOW DARE HE ASK ME TO AGREE TO SHIP HIS FEW THINGS HE LEFT BEHIND TO HIM !!!!! "After Several Phone Calls where We had ARGUED over that, I finally gave in, and I told Him that I would SHIP His Things once He sends Me a MONEY ORDER for the Expenses of Shipping it ! BUT.... Truth is, I DON'T WANT TO ! WHY SHOULD I ????? After all, WHAT DID HE EVER TRULY DO FOR ME EXCEPT BRING PAIN, FEAR, MISERY, SADNESS, AND HEART BREAK, TO MY LIFE ??!!! I don't know... Should I do it just to be CIVIL ? Just to Show Him that I'm NOT going to stoop to HIS WAY of Behaving, even though He Deserves My Anger, and Much MORE !?!?! Time will Tell, though.... From the Last Conversation I had when He Called Me, it sounds like He may not ever have any Money to be able to send Me a MONEY ORDER anytime soon... IF EVER... because He said His NEW GF recently LOST HER JOB, and They don't know IF They're even going to be able to Pay November's RENT !!!! So that doesn't sound as IF He'll have $ 75.00 to send in a MONEY ORDER to Me for Shipping His Things to Him... at least NOT by December like He originally said, and if it becomes ANY Later than that, I'm guessing by then He'll probably have forgotten all about it. After all, the " Things " aren't really all that IMPORTANT IF He really stopped to Think about it ! - ( Of course, but WHEN Has He EVER REALLY USED HIS BRAIN, AND CLEARLY THOUGHT ABOUT ANYTHING ?! LOL ) - His " Things " that He left behind only consisted of some Magazines, a few Clothes, and the DVD Cases of the Movies He took.... That's IT !!!! Does that sound to YOU to be SO IMPORTANT that You'd INSIST that Someone Ship Those Things to YOU ?????!! No Offense meant to ANYONE on this Site that has Manic-Depressive Disorder - ( Especially since I'm sure most of You are probably under Regular Doctor's Care, and are taking Meds for it on a Regular Basis  - UNLIKE MY EXBF ! ) - but I'm thinking that MAYBE the ONLY Reason He made such a FUSS about it was because He was going through ONE of His " MANIC " Phases ! During those times, EVERYTHING is A MAJOR SITUATION to Him.... No Matter HOW TINY it really is, when He's in that " Phase ", He acts like it's CRITICAL, and LIFE-ALTERING, IF it's NOT TAKEN CARE OF RIGHT AWAY !!!! Along with that Attitude, He's buzzing around like He's the Energizer Bunny on SPEED ! He'll talk Faster, Move Faster, and barely even Rest, no matter how Tired He MUST BE from Everything He's doing ! So, I guess I'll wait and see. I'm NOT going to EVER CONTACT HIM AGAIN ANYWAYS, so that should help Him FORGET about asking Me to Ship those Few Things He left behind. PLUS, I'm Hoping that His Mood " Cycling " will slow down enough that He'll actually STAY in a Clear Thinking " Phase " for an Extended Period of Time. With Him, You NEVER know though... Especially since He's NOT on ANY Medication for His Disorders. I say Disorders - plural - because I'm been thinking about it lately - ( mind You, NOT saying it was ANY EXCUSE for Him ABUSING ME, though... because many Times I think He USED IT AS AN EXCUSE TO ABUSE ME... AS KIND OF CRUTCH TO LEAN ON ANY TIME HE DECIDED TO EXPLODE AT ME IN RAGE ! ) - but I've realized that He's NOT ONLY BI-POLAR / MANIC-DEPRESSIVE, BUT He's ALSO DEFINITELY Extremely Obsessive - Compulsive ! The thing was all the Time with Him, was that I strongly feel that He used those Facts as AN EXCUSE to be a RAGING ABUSIVE ASS towards Me !... BUT I WAS SUPPOSED TO ACCEPT IT, BECAUSE HE HAD A " DISORDER " !  BULLSH*T !!!!!!!! What He didn't Understand... and I don't think He'll EVER understand, NO MATTER WHO He's with, is that it's NOT UP TO THE OTHER PERSON TO ' DEAL WITH HIM ', AND ' ACCEPT ' HIM... IT'S UP TO HIM TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT !!!!!! He would REFUSE to take ANY ACTION towards getting HELP, by using the EXCUSE that according to what He's heard FLORIDA is the Worst State in the U.S. for Health Care, so there's NO POINT in Him even trying to get Help ! IS THAT THE LAMEST EXCUSE YOU'VE EVER HEARD, OR WHAT ????!!!! LOL Well, He's NOT MY PROBLEM ANYMORE ! He's His NEW GF's Problem now !! I think She MUST be NUTS herself, to allow Him into Her LIFE after ONLY KNOWING HIM for 2 MONTHS !!!! JUST TWO MONTHS !!!! And She CLAIMS SHE LOVES HIM VERY MUCH !!!! LOL AFTER KNOWING HIM ONLINE FOR ONLY TWO MONTHS... SHE LOVES HIM VERY MUCH ??!!! That's NUTS !!!!! LOL So,  They're a PERFECT PAIR ! Oh.. by the Way... In Case You're Wondering HOW I learned this about Her... She had Written Me a NASTY E-Mail a While back... when I was going through My Intial Phase of still trying to Reach Out to Him through Voice Mails, and E-mails. She had read My E-mails to Him, and took it upon Herself to write one back to Me ! I HOPE She enjoys HIS RAGE !!!! LOL The Last Time He Called ME, He admitted that He's already DESTROYED TWO THINGS in Their Bathroom !!!! Plus, for some Weird Reason, He told Me that She's PROMISED HIM that She'll NEVER CALL THE COPS ON HIM !!!! IS THAT NUTS, OR WHAT ????! Obviously, She hasn't seen the FULL EXTENT of His RAGE yet, OR I don't think She would have made that Promise ! BUT regardless, it still proves to Me that He's as NUTS as He is !!!! LOL She said that INSTEAD of CALLING THE COPS that She would have Her Two BROTHERS come over, and BEAT HIM UP... IF HE EVER HURT HER !!!!! LOL In Theory, MAYBE that would work... MAYBE... BUT WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF HER BROTHERS AREN'T AROUND WHEN SOMETHING HAPPENED ????!!!!  I don't think She's thought that far, BESIDES when He's in a FULL BLOWN RAGE He wouldn't care a bit about HER THREAT OF HAVING HER BROTHERS HURT HIM ! IN FACT, it'd be safe to say that during One of His FULL BLOWN RAGES HE'D PROBABLY DARE HER TO CALL HER BROTHERS... SAYING THAT HE'D TAKE BOTH OF THEM ON AT THE SAME TIME !!!! LOL I've seem Him talk like that before. SHE HASN'T... YET ! OBVIOUSLY ! Anyways... IT'S A BEAUTIFUL DAY OUTSIDE... and I FEEL GREAT TODAY... RESTED... AND HAPPY THAT I'M HERE ON MY OWN AGAIN ! I'M FREE OF HIS RAGE.... NO MORE FEAR BECAUSE OF HIM... NO MORE BULLYING... NO MORE NAME-CALLING FROM HIM... NO MORE CONTROLLING B.S. FROM HIM ! I'm THANKFUL TO GOD that I'm FREE OF ALL OF THAT NOW !!!!! HIS NEW GF decided to allow Him into Her Life, so it's NOT on Me to feel BAD FOR HER... I WON'T DO IT... BECAUSE SHE DECIDED TO ALLOW A STRANGER INTO HER LIFE... SHE'LL FACE WHATEVER HAPPENS NOW... HE'S HER PROBLEM NOW.. NOT MINE ANYMORE !!!!!