I got a lot done today
Today I got a lot done. I went to the store and got groceries, I did my strength training at the gym, and got some biking done. I dropped off the rent, and they are going to be increasing the amount next month, so I have to sign a new paper. I wanted to sign it today but there were too many people ahead of me and they told me to come back tomorrow. I hope I can sign the paper tomorrow, since I don't want to have to go back and forth to the office just to sign the paper. I guess they don't understand I have to walk to the office, and it's about a quarter of a mile so it's a half mile round trip. Most people drive there, but I don't have a car and even if I did, a half mile is a waste of gas. Tomorrow I'm going to go to another store and see about getting some meat at a good price if they take food stamps. If not, I might get something smaller just so I can have more meat to last the rest of the month. I did get some meat at the store today, but I need to get more to last us the month. I'm a bit wary of trying to get a whole freezer full of meat in hurricane season, but Geo says it will be okay. If something hits, we can get ice to keep the meat fresh. It's not exactly what I want to do, but whatever. I have to trust him since he knows more about this than I do. I've never been through a hurricane, just a tropical storm.
I'm tired today. I don't know if I slept too much last night or what. I got 12 hours of sleep, and today I just feel sluggish. I think I'm sleeping more since Geo is sleeping when I wake up. Well, that's not true.. if I don't think I've had enough sleep mentally (no matter how I feel when I wake up) then I try and go back to sleep. I guess I should just sleep with my eye mask on and when I wake up and feel refreshed, to get up. I can use my laptop in the office so I don't wake Geo, so him sleeping is just an excuse. I sleep in late when he is awake too. I've just been sleep-greedy lately. I don't know if that's why I'm tired today, or if I've been greedy because I need the sleep. I'm waking up a bit, which I normally do at this time, so we will see how I sleep tonight. I need to fill out my sleep paper before I forget (my homework from therapy).
Mood is just okay today... I'm not feeling as good... maybe it's the pain in my knee or just the hallucinations getting to me. I've been hallucinating a bit more than I was, so tomorrow I'm going to start taking more of my antipsychotic. I have a dose that my doctor told me I could raise if I needed to, and I think I will need to. I'm not playing around with my meds without doctor's advice. Speaking of which, I need to make an appointment with my psych to see about getting more meds by the end of the month. I'm really hoping I can pull my mood up again and feel better like I did last month. Well, I don't know how much of it was me and how much of it was my moods just being that way. Either way, I'm hoping that this okay mood will go up to a good mood again tomorrow and stay that way. I did hear a trigger song today about my dad, so we will see if I get any bad effects from that. I wasn't feeling that great before I heard the song, and I only heard part of it, but sometimes just a bit of that song can get me depressed (the song is Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen). It sucks because I like the end of the song, but the beginning of it is a trigger. It was the song I was listening to when I realized my dad was dead and that he killed himself. See? There I go again with saying he killed himself, and I'm kinda depressed. I guess I just notice my patterns. I have insight they say. Oh well.
Food was okay today... I had Chinese food for lunch and dinner, plus a piece of chicken for breakfast and another one for dinner. I ate my calories today, so that's good at least. Mood and sleep I talked about above, and stress was okay today. I just wanted to get that stupid paper signed so I didn't have to worry about going again tomorrow. I don't like it when people make me push things that can be done when I'm there to another time. I don't think anyone likes that, but it gets to me. Not much I can do now, but if they tell me to come back on Monday tomorrow I'm going to be pissed.
I'm tired today. I don't know if I slept too much last night or what. I got 12 hours of sleep, and today I just feel sluggish. I think I'm sleeping more since Geo is sleeping when I wake up. Well, that's not true.. if I don't think I've had enough sleep mentally (no matter how I feel when I wake up) then I try and go back to sleep. I guess I should just sleep with my eye mask on and when I wake up and feel refreshed, to get up. I can use my laptop in the office so I don't wake Geo, so him sleeping is just an excuse. I sleep in late when he is awake too. I've just been sleep-greedy lately. I don't know if that's why I'm tired today, or if I've been greedy because I need the sleep. I'm waking up a bit, which I normally do at this time, so we will see how I sleep tonight. I need to fill out my sleep paper before I forget (my homework from therapy).
Mood is just okay today... I'm not feeling as good... maybe it's the pain in my knee or just the hallucinations getting to me. I've been hallucinating a bit more than I was, so tomorrow I'm going to start taking more of my antipsychotic. I have a dose that my doctor told me I could raise if I needed to, and I think I will need to. I'm not playing around with my meds without doctor's advice. Speaking of which, I need to make an appointment with my psych to see about getting more meds by the end of the month. I'm really hoping I can pull my mood up again and feel better like I did last month. Well, I don't know how much of it was me and how much of it was my moods just being that way. Either way, I'm hoping that this okay mood will go up to a good mood again tomorrow and stay that way. I did hear a trigger song today about my dad, so we will see if I get any bad effects from that. I wasn't feeling that great before I heard the song, and I only heard part of it, but sometimes just a bit of that song can get me depressed (the song is Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen). It sucks because I like the end of the song, but the beginning of it is a trigger. It was the song I was listening to when I realized my dad was dead and that he killed himself. See? There I go again with saying he killed himself, and I'm kinda depressed. I guess I just notice my patterns. I have insight they say. Oh well.
Food was okay today... I had Chinese food for lunch and dinner, plus a piece of chicken for breakfast and another one for dinner. I ate my calories today, so that's good at least. Mood and sleep I talked about above, and stress was okay today. I just wanted to get that stupid paper signed so I didn't have to worry about going again tomorrow. I don't like it when people make me push things that can be done when I'm there to another time. I don't think anyone likes that, but it gets to me. Not much I can do now, but if they tell me to come back on Monday tomorrow I'm going to be pissed.
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