I give up

This past 4 days have tested me beyond all belief. I have had multiple anxiety attacks today and have run out of Valium Gah this is now the 1st time in 4 days that I am alone.... I've moved into a new place with my bf but separate rooms as we haven't been together long and I wanted that way so I could have space and I haven't had any space at all. I was abused and assaulted at work over the weekend and I just feel so exhausted, hopeless and like a failure. I JUST WANT MY DAD