i fucked up!!!
i really did. plz excuse my language, but it is truly how i feel. i was going to write this in the morning...but i just couldnt get all of this stuff out of my head. i tried to read and i just couldnt concentrate. before i go on any further....i truly did fuck up. i said things out of anger that i really shouldnt have. i was WRONG! i am writing this because i need to spew...i am not looking for anybody telling me not to beat myself up over it or anything. i really dont. i am admitting that i was wrong and i have to live with what i said. time will heal, but it doesnt make my words any less hurtful. now many of you know whats been going on with me and i so thank you all for being there for me. words cant describe all of the support i have been given by you all. some of you also know that i needed to have a good talk with trey. i had it all planned out. (i went over it so many times in my mind and made me anxious as heck.) the last 2 days i have been very stressed and emotional because of all of the things on my mind. i am a freakin worrier and i cant help it.since trey is back on here, i will respect his privacy and not go into what actually happened in the convo that never happened, but a fight instead. i apologize in advance if at all i seem to be all over the place... well things didnt go as planned, i think i was just too emotional and my anger took over. (something i really need to work on.) my plan was to start with how proud i am of him, how much i support him, how much i love him, etc. well it just got ugly like i said and i said really hurtful things. i feel so bad. i tried to tell him what i wanted to and understandably so, what stung stayed in his mind. i would be the same. i apologized all over the place and assured him that i didnt meant it...i was just so angry and frustrated. im not going to go on and rehash the same things over and over...but i am truly sorry, from the bottom of my heart. i really am proud of trey and i support him 110% (thats for you trey, lol,) and i love him to death. we can work thru this, all of it! thanks for listening. mindy
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You needed to let some things out. You realized what you did and admitted to it. That\'s all you can do and reassure Trey. I believe you needed to let it out. I understand the bad you feel inside though when you hurt someone you love and it\'s all an accident. You both are growing and maturing in this relationship. Arguing is apart of it. Take care friend, Love and hugs, Jennay
Dear Mindy, You and Trey have both been going through a very stressful time. The stress makes you say things that you do not truly believe, it really does. The good thing is that if you guys can survive this then there is nothing that can break you up, ever. Journal, its helps to relieve the building stress!!!!! Eric
HI Mindy! :) It always helps, to let emotions, and feelings out. It\'s not good to bottle them up. i\'ve found, it\'s great, to let those emotions, and feelings flow. i know, that everything will work out well, between you and Trey. i will always believe in you both, and have faith in you both. stay strong together, and together, you both will come out of these rough moments, stronger than ever! :)
always here for you, if you need to talk. :)
Hiya,Mindy.Sorry to hear about this.I\'m sure he knows you didn\'t mean what you said, and that you just said it out of frustration.
Hope you\'ve both had a chat about it and all\'s well.
Lots of hugs!
lots of love to you and trey... =0) i am here for you ma ma...