I felt Justin

Thursday I went to Springfield and on my way home I went by the cematary to see if Justin's headstone was there it wasn't I cleaned the base as I was getting up I could smell Justin's cologne that he wore all the time I did a full circle and was just smelling then I felt something on my shoulder I turned and said out loud Justin are you here?That's all that happen the smell of his sweet colonge went away and I  freaked out it was almost dark I got scared.I don't know if my mind wanted that to happen or it was Justin telling me hi.Something else thats been happening is when I do laundry I find a nickel in the washer I use to give him nickels way back when.I think maybe my mind is playing tricks on me.I want to see and smell those things so I'll never forget my sweet Justin.He was a colonge man when he got cleaned up you could smell him a mile away I think he got that from me I love perfume and sometimes wear to much.Rebecca said maybe his a ghost I don't believe in ghosts I do angels but I don't think they come back to earth until the judgement day I have to tell God that I couldn't save a life I let one of his children down.I do hope I don't get punished for it.I know you all say it wasn't my fault but I don't think you relize he asked me for help and I did nothing I LET HIM DIE.That's how I feel it's driving me into a corner.Peace to all.jfm24,Vicki