I feel tired today

I can't even list what type of entry this is today.I did nothing and I mean nothing all frikkin' day.I have to call my RE since last week.  I did not get around to it.I have to do it on Monday.I secured a new client for next Saturday.  I'm psyched about that.I'm so excited about having a new client.I have to miss my BNI group this Tuesday.  I'm actually bummed about it.I'm nervous about something.  I've been chewing on my fingers/fingernails for weeks now.I feel anxious (maybe that's what I should have listed this entry as) aboutthe business, our IRS issue, get out taxes in order, getting our money in order.Getting the new clients back that I had to let go when I was down from surgery.I can't even make a fist because of all of the scar tissue that's had to grown on the pads of my finger tips.  I think its an illness now because whenever I feel anxious or nervous, I go work on my fingers.Today, I would really, really love some lobster mac and cheese with fontina cheese and gruyere.  My brother is going back to Vancouver on Tuesday.  I'll miss him, but I need the house back.  I want to follow his lead by going to the gym as much as he does, but I'm sooooo tired.  I've been doing some of the Activia from the Wii and its cool, but I'm still dead it seems.I have started to take vitamins and folic acid.  I need to keep it up.I'm wondering if I even want this enough.I've been so beat down with everything that I don't even want to wish for anything because it may be disappointing.I've got to stop being so negative.