I feel so isolated and alone

Thank God for my mom.  Otherwise I would have no one else to talk to.  I could not go to my brother's house yesterday for dinner.  I could not go for obvious reasons.  I feel so isolated and alone.  I have no other friends.  No one I can really talk to.  I hate to come off whiny.  I am not the type to ask for help anyway.  I am strong, I know I am.  I pray a lot right now.    Thank you htag for the call.  I cannot tell you how much I appreciated it when I was feeling at my worst!   I will get through this.  And I will keep exercising.  This gets me out of the house and helps clear my head. Another frustration:  I know it is just a number.  But my mom says my sister is now a size 12.  I am guessing now she is in low 180's.  I just got to a size 12 and I am now at 148!!!  she is maybe 1" taller than me.  This is SO frustrating to me.  But I am down almost 20 lbs and have kept it off almost 1 year.  so I have to think positive. Are sizes different now than 10 years ago?  Is a size 12 now similar to a size 14 years ago?  Just wonderng.  Again, People say to me they are a size 10 or whatever and I look at me and get frustrated. Oh well.  1 day at a time.  Right?