I feel okay today kind of sad

That sadness believe it or not is a improvement  from the last three days..or has it been four? 

I woke up the kids  to get their schooling  started they do the digital learning today so their at their computers  mostly all day. I wish everything would  go back to normal. This pandemic  is just the worst. I chose not to send them to the physical school because of the virus. According to most news stations the sooner you allow your kids to go back to the brick and Mortar physical school your kids are likely to get it. The news stations  reported this but who can trust  the media any more  there just so dishonest, What ever happened to integrity in journalism   I suppose like everything else it has fell by the waste side like everything else-  common decency,morals,manners,respect,kindness,and compassion.  In other news  they say the risk has gone down so who do you suppose to believe?  sigh.. I wish things  could go back to normal actally  I wish we can go back to a time where familys were still together,there was no odious  crimes against children,there were no risk at going outside and being a crime victim, I wish we can go back to a time when families  cared about eachother instead of emotionally and physically tearing eachother  apart  bit by bit bone by bone tears were something of happiness not sadness. If only we could. this world  today is sick twisted and everyone seems to hate everyone else. Media  just egging it on making it so much worst just to sell stories.  I hate this world the society  is just ready to implode on itself I don't see no hope  in living in it. I know I must  for my kids but participating in the turmoil  is not something  I am willing to  do.  I see the point of going off grid   the people  were smart enough to realize  society seemed to get worst rather then better so they left society  I can't blame them.