i feel like a nobody

My mom and dad are opposite people in personality and views on life. My dad is outgoing and a people person but a drawback is he is lazy. my mom isn't much of a people person and she always has negative views on others and life and i think she is very manic. every morning she would clean the house even a few minutes b4 work she'd clean the pots and pans and i'd tell her that its time 4 her 2 go 2 work. when i talk to my dad my dad sees my personality is a lot like my mom and when i talk to my mom she sees some traits that i have with my dad. and they r not good traits. my mom tells me im lazy like my dad and i make up excuses for my mistakes and lie to cover things up like my dad. she told me that she has enough with my dad and my dad tells me he has enough with my mom. my dad says that my mom teaches me how to be a phony two face. whoever i dont like i'd b nice n say hi but after that i'd ignore them. she'd compare me to other friends of mine and i'd already got jealous of one of my friends and i was just 8 years old. i'm thinking in the future, if i get married and sometimes i feel like i'm like my dad or i'm angry like my mom i dont know if my husband's gonna b able 2 handle me. and dont even get me started with having kids! i'd rather just end up taking my own life.