I feel like a horrible mom
right now. Ian is up-stairs crying his eyes out. For the past few weeks Ian has been fighting bedtime. He will be super tired and cranky but will cry and cry until someone comes up there. It started as just once then more and more. I know its not because he is not tired. As soon as I go in there and pick him up he puts his head on my shoulder and closes his eyes. Well i just cant do it anymore. Running up and down a flight of stairs 15 times a night is way to much. So i decided to do cry it out. I put him down and he seemed like he was going ot drop right of. Well he started crying and so I took Dede outside to go potty and so i wouldnt have to hear him. When i got back he was quite so i peeked in his room and he was just laying there. About 5 minutes later he started crying again. Then he would stop then start then stop. I think me no going up there is working. But i HATE hearing him cry. Im hoping this will break his habit and that his dad will stick to it when he gets home.
I still think this pregnancy is no good. I have a feeling when we go next friday (i changed my appointment so DH could go) there will be no heartbeat. I will be 8 weeks. I just dont "feel" right.
Dh is in germany. He is workng 10 staright days. SO not happy about it. Im basically am a single mom for a week and a half. We go to Ga at the end of the month for about a week. Last time I was there DH'd grandpa didnt look so good so I told him he needed to take som etim eof fto go see him before its to late. My bil and sil will also be down so i get to see my neice! Im happy about that. Then in July we are going to cali for my family runiun. Its been a year since I have been there and I have never gone that long without visiting.
LALALALALAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa Ian is still crying. He is actually scream crying. It is a new thing he has learned during these little test. I cant give in. I will go in there in 5 minutes if he is still crying but i WILL not pick him up. I will lay him down give him his passi's he has thrown out and rub his back. After that no more. I hate this but it works.
No onto my rant. I am so sick of bills. My DH makes decent money. We are far from rich but i get to be a SAHM we both have decent cars own a home an so forth. But it seems like we cant catch a break. Everytime I think we will have extra money something pops up. I just got a $300 bill from when i got stitches last month. Ians $350 deductible from when he was hospitalized in Febuary. Its always something. im trying to pay off out last credit card but its taking forever. I CANT wait to move back to GA. We are paying $1500 rent right now. Our mortgage on our house is $1200. Our house is way bigger and nicer. I want another house but after being in this tiny townhouse our old house will do for a while. We have great tenants in there. We are thinking when we get transfered home that we will move in with his parents until we find a house that we want to buy. maybe 3 months max. That will also help us save for a down payment. Moving so much has drained our savings. Im hopeing we can save 5k in 3 months. They have some awsome 4 bedroom 3 bath 3000 sq foot houses for about 170K. im praying that we are back before the new baby. At the very least before the baby os 6 months. I told james a few days ago during a hormonal fit that i was moving back to ga next april with or with out him. He can put in for his transfer this september. But who knows. I would so move back but then i think about Ian not seeing his dad and i cant do it. He loves his dad so much its not right. It breaks my heart thinking about ian not seeing him for a few months. He did that when he was a newborn. He didnt know the differance but now he does.
yay Ian is quite. Thank you Jesus! Speaking of Jesus, ok crazy people who think the world is ending tomorrow. Dont you read the bible? its says not even the angles know when the time is. Well im goingt go finish cleaning the kitchen from dinner. Have a great weekend.
I still think this pregnancy is no good. I have a feeling when we go next friday (i changed my appointment so DH could go) there will be no heartbeat. I will be 8 weeks. I just dont "feel" right.
Dh is in germany. He is workng 10 staright days. SO not happy about it. Im basically am a single mom for a week and a half. We go to Ga at the end of the month for about a week. Last time I was there DH'd grandpa didnt look so good so I told him he needed to take som etim eof fto go see him before its to late. My bil and sil will also be down so i get to see my neice! Im happy about that. Then in July we are going to cali for my family runiun. Its been a year since I have been there and I have never gone that long without visiting.
LALALALALAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa Ian is still crying. He is actually scream crying. It is a new thing he has learned during these little test. I cant give in. I will go in there in 5 minutes if he is still crying but i WILL not pick him up. I will lay him down give him his passi's he has thrown out and rub his back. After that no more. I hate this but it works.
No onto my rant. I am so sick of bills. My DH makes decent money. We are far from rich but i get to be a SAHM we both have decent cars own a home an so forth. But it seems like we cant catch a break. Everytime I think we will have extra money something pops up. I just got a $300 bill from when i got stitches last month. Ians $350 deductible from when he was hospitalized in Febuary. Its always something. im trying to pay off out last credit card but its taking forever. I CANT wait to move back to GA. We are paying $1500 rent right now. Our mortgage on our house is $1200. Our house is way bigger and nicer. I want another house but after being in this tiny townhouse our old house will do for a while. We have great tenants in there. We are thinking when we get transfered home that we will move in with his parents until we find a house that we want to buy. maybe 3 months max. That will also help us save for a down payment. Moving so much has drained our savings. Im hopeing we can save 5k in 3 months. They have some awsome 4 bedroom 3 bath 3000 sq foot houses for about 170K. im praying that we are back before the new baby. At the very least before the baby os 6 months. I told james a few days ago during a hormonal fit that i was moving back to ga next april with or with out him. He can put in for his transfer this september. But who knows. I would so move back but then i think about Ian not seeing his dad and i cant do it. He loves his dad so much its not right. It breaks my heart thinking about ian not seeing him for a few months. He did that when he was a newborn. He didnt know the differance but now he does.
yay Ian is quite. Thank you Jesus! Speaking of Jesus, ok crazy people who think the world is ending tomorrow. Dont you read the bible? its says not even the angles know when the time is. Well im goingt go finish cleaning the kitchen from dinner. Have a great weekend.
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