I Feel Invisible to Him... and to Everyone Lately

Lately it seems My Bf has discovered a NEW WAY to Hurt Me.... By putting ALL OF THE SLUTS THAT HE CHATS WITH ONLINE... AHEAD OF ME !!!!! Lately, almost EVERY TIME He's Online, at some Point He is sitting there TYPING AWAY LIKE CRAZY !!!! If it's IMS, or if it's in Messages He's writing, OR MAYBE BOTH, I'm not sure. All I know is that it drives Me NUTS, and HE KNOWS THAT ! He knows how MUCH it UPSETS Me when He's sitting at MY COMPUTER, and He's typing  SO MUCH to OTHER WOMEN !!!! Does He have any clue how deeply it HURTS ME ? Does He know how much I think to Myself.... " WHY DOES HE HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY TO THOSE OTHER WOMEN, BUT HE CAN'T SIT DOWN AND HAVE A REGULAR CONVERSATION WITH ME WITHOUT ENDING UP CRITIZING ME... OR CALLING ME NAMES ????!!!! "When I look over at Him when He's in the middle of typing a Message to ONE of those Other Women, I see the Look of Intensity on His Face, and I can't help but wonder WHAT He's writing about ! How can I NOT wonder ???? For all I know, He's making several different plans to " MEET UP " with Other Women... to " HOOK UP " with Them FACE TO FACE !!!!! How can I NOT assume the Worst ???? He doesn't bother to correct My assumptions, and I'm sure He realizes what I'm probably thinking. He knows I suspect Him. I'm sure He realizes that I don't completely Trust Him where the Computer is concerned. But it's as if He gets a " KICK " out of worrying Me !!!! It's as if it makes Him feel " POWERFUL ", or " GOOD ", to know that He's bothering Me as much as He is by His EXCESSIVE TYPING TO OTHER WOMEN !!!!! Please Understand.... It's NOT... I repeat NOT... that I want Him to start RAGING AT ME, and HURTING ME, yet AGAIN !That sort of ATTENTION - if You can call it that - is something I definitely can live WITHOUT !!!! It's simply that I WISH FOR ONCE.... JUST FOR ONCE, AT LEAST... HE WOULD ACT LIKE MY BOYFRIEND, AND NOT LIKE A ROOMMATE !!!!!!! Would a TRUE, LOVING BOYFRIEND really type SO MUCH to OTHER WOMEN ONLINE, the Way that HE DOES ?????? OR IS THAT MORE LIKE A ROOMMATE ? I think it seems more like Roommate behavior,but IF I was to DARE to discuss this with HIM, I know what His reaction would be. He would INSIST that I'm just purposely trying to start a Big Fight ! He'd INSIST that I was TRYING TO MAKE HIM ANGRY AT ME... ON PURPOSE ! I know this, because that's been His response concerning MANY Other ISSUES that I've TRIED to talk to Him about ! That's ALWAYS HIS EXCUSE for avoiding the ISSUE, and NOT talking about it ! SO WHAT DO I DO ????? I WISH I KNEW !!!! I want things to CHANGE.... but the CHANGES have to start with HIS BEHAVIOR, and I know I can't MAKE HIM CHANGE ! I want to SOMEHOW ignore what He does ONLINE, and NOT LET it Hurt Me, but HOW CAN I ?????It feels like SUCH A BETRAYAL.... IT IS A BETRAYAL in My Mind !HOW DO YOU IGNORE SOMEONE THAT'S OPENLY BETRAYING YOU, AND DEEPLY HURTING YOU LIKE THAT... HURTING YOUR VERY SOUL ??????