I feel guilty.

How do I make you fall in love with me like I was able to before?, but that's the thing. I didn't even try to do anything. She just came to me out of no where & I had nothing to offer at the time. I was afraid of getting hurt, and what do you know? Stepped out on the limb an got hurt. Now I am just trying to pick up the pieces of where everything went wrong. All I really wanted was to slow down appreciate the relationship we had, now I feel guilty. Knowing all the things I've done I was such a fool. The more I sit around & think about it the more pissed off I become, but what else is there to do? I don't want to be in another relationship it hurts to much. All I can say is I have really fucked up good things in my life & there is no way to go back and fix them. Why? I want to go back so bad & just stay in that moment because it's truly better than sitting here in thought knowing that I can't get what I want back and to just get used to it. It hurts, but eventually it will all go away. Just waiting for that moment to pass through in my head it sure doesn't want to right now...