I feel free

 Being Bi-Polar is one thing that's hard to deal with.  One way I (use) to cope was spend too much at a certain store known for overpriced body care, is how I'll say it.  It use to fill this whole in my heart caused by past and current abuse both from my mom and dad and the every day depression I deal with by being bi-polar.  But today I ripped up my coupons to the store that shall remain nameless, and started saving for my future with the money I was gonna blow there this month.  This "victory" was almost as hard as quitting smoking tobacco products, but I feel like I may be able to kick my bad spending habit this time for good.  Update on my "mom situation," (see my other journal entries,) after a long night of the silent treatment, we made up.  I'm still gonna try and save up money and at least get a car so I can get away from her when she freaks out or comes up with some absurd accusation that I'm being mean to her.  Save, save, save, is the name of the game and I'm ready to play.  I feel really good about life today even though just yesterday I had the worst argument of my life with anyone, bar none.  You never know when life will throw you a break.  I'm feeling very greatful and Excellent today.