I Feel Fine
No news.
still stressing about making bookings and how i go about that. I think typically a pay a 5% deposit maybe...?
might go see Kyra first in Melbourne then some time in Sydney before I fly to LA...wow and gulp! can i do this? Worst come to worst I have my phone and can text saying im outside Gate 23 or whatever.
Carry on baggage doesnt let you take on much about 15 kilos...would prefer to live out of small bag so no waiitng at carousels. i need to buy a bag and have atrial run.
Had anice day off yesterday. Saw the Waimarino psychologist who basically said there was nothing she could do for me that I wasn't already doing and maybe I have emotional dysfunction rather than bipolar. That would be funny if I've been medicated all this time for incorrect diagnosis. I would miss being diagnosed with such a trendy illness!
Last time I saw a psychologist she got me to fill in a 360 questionnaire -not anywhere did being manic register as being clinically significant.
Hmmmmmmmm.
I hope I am not bipolar as I dont want a lifetime diagnosis. I can fight and deal with emotional dysregulation I think.
See what Dr Chandra says on March 1st.
weekends are too short-only two days. I must look forward to work but it gets repetitive rather. Ill have been there 5 years in June. ust dont know what other job I can do that suits me as well as this one does. OK money, casual clothes,nice work mates, work that is easy....mmmmm.....
Ivan and I are getting along fine i think and hope and pray. I hope he is feeling good about me being here.
He says he thinks trip will be good for me but wonders if i am underestimating the difficulties of it. Yea! I am not underestimating but better if I do a wee bit or Id be too scared to go!
I need to keep my courage up.
still stressing about making bookings and how i go about that. I think typically a pay a 5% deposit maybe...?
might go see Kyra first in Melbourne then some time in Sydney before I fly to LA...wow and gulp! can i do this? Worst come to worst I have my phone and can text saying im outside Gate 23 or whatever.
Carry on baggage doesnt let you take on much about 15 kilos...would prefer to live out of small bag so no waiitng at carousels. i need to buy a bag and have atrial run.
Had anice day off yesterday. Saw the Waimarino psychologist who basically said there was nothing she could do for me that I wasn't already doing and maybe I have emotional dysfunction rather than bipolar. That would be funny if I've been medicated all this time for incorrect diagnosis. I would miss being diagnosed with such a trendy illness!
Last time I saw a psychologist she got me to fill in a 360 questionnaire -not anywhere did being manic register as being clinically significant.
Hmmmmmmmm.
I hope I am not bipolar as I dont want a lifetime diagnosis. I can fight and deal with emotional dysregulation I think.
See what Dr Chandra says on March 1st.
weekends are too short-only two days. I must look forward to work but it gets repetitive rather. Ill have been there 5 years in June. ust dont know what other job I can do that suits me as well as this one does. OK money, casual clothes,nice work mates, work that is easy....mmmmm.....
Ivan and I are getting along fine i think and hope and pray. I hope he is feeling good about me being here.
He says he thinks trip will be good for me but wonders if i am underestimating the difficulties of it. Yea! I am not underestimating but better if I do a wee bit or Id be too scared to go!
I need to keep my courage up.
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