I dunno

Trying to learn this song that I like alot.  It's hard. Alot of difficult chord sequences but it's a beautiful song.  I can hold a pick ok but sometimes lose my grip and it falls and I have to bend over and pick it up.
Cloudy overcast day today. Looks like rain. Rainy days and mondays always get me down, like the song. Depressing. When the weather's depressing I begin to think of depressing things. My mind wanders back to the days when I worked two jobs, just to make ends meet. We were living way above our means so I was working from 1 am in the morning untill 6 pm at nite to try and dig us out of a financial hole in the ground.
I couldn't do it alone, and 15 years of that made me turn to drugs and alcohol but those didn't help either and nearly took my life in one way or another.  I reached a point when I asked God to just take me cause I have had it with this thing called life.  It sucks and then we die anyway.
Today with the overcast sky, I almost feel like that again, but it will pass.  It always does. Just feelings of loneliness, thats all.  
My exwife shares her bed with someone else now, and I go to sleep alone, by myself, and since my ex got the house, I am sleeping in someone else's house for the first time in 24 years.
I have my dog....my best friend....it will all work out.
Hope you all have a good day!