I drown in sorrow
With razor blades I shall save my lifeInstead of die I shall just cutI feel my skin open up And from inside It bubbles upWith the blood comes out emotionSo many tears I cry an oceanSadly I don't know how to swimIn my sorrow I drown again I tread water as long as I canLooking out for someones handWishing for a life preserverMy voice comes out barely a murmurWhy can I not just be murdered At least then I'm not a deserterNo one knows the pain I hideNo one knows how bad I'm brokenI cry out but no words are spokenWhy must I suffer such painWhy must I feel such shameWhy do I have to hate myselfWhy do I fight for everyone else When no one else will fight for meWhat is it that they don't seeThe only things that relive me Are Razor blades and my oxy'sOne more night of blood and drugsOne more night with no love or hugsOne more night wishing Id dieAt least I know that I will die highI know that Ill say goodbye so very soon deep down insideI cant fight it anymoreI am knocking at hell's door If I make it through this yearThen I know I will stay hereHere upon this broken planet Its so ugly I cant stand it
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Aw bro!!! I seriously hate myself for falling asleep before calling! I\'m so sorry! I really hope you made it thru the night! I LOVE YOU!!
Oh Tray you break my heart. I wish you could see the amazing man i see in you, its there, trust me!!
love you
HUGS!!!!!!!!
That\'s not what your mom wants to read, boy! I\'m feeling down enough myself...I sure don\'t need YOU to be down! Try to think HAPPY thoughts, at least a little bit! Think of your little sisters. Not trying to guilt you there. Ok, well, I\'m a mom, so maybe a LITTLE guilting in there. :) So, you had a horrible day yesterday. We all have those days; we just deal with them differently. Now, try to pick yourself up by the bootstrap (a challenge in and of itself), put a smile (even if it\'s fake) on, and tell me if you have international calling on your phone. :)