I dont want to die but not to keen of living either

I wanna start this off saying im not sucidal, Im probably to chicken shit to do it anyway, but at the moment I been so depressed, and I think to myself is this all worth it, whats the point of carrying on. Just not feeling it anymore and find it harder and harder to motivate myself, If it wasnt for my dogs needing to go out side or I have to feed him, I probably wont get out of bed

Any ideas ot cheer me up? I should mention I recently fell and broke my hip, its defo one of the hardest things I have had to endure. Im still recovering and because of the depth of the break it effected my leg also, they had to put a rod in my leg down to my knee. My leg is shorter than the other due my fall and break of hip, Physio might help as I also cant straighten my leg fullly still, the hope is to do physio and get my leg to straighten and in hopes to get my leg to not be shorter than the other. If it doesnt work then I will need to get a higher sole for my shoe.

Realtionship: all my realtionships always eventually goes a way in the end, I also have spinal bifida which comes with its own chalanges, but I feel this has set me back for anyone to want me or find me attractive. I also havent been intamate in ages with anyone, yes I would love to have sex (I have needs) but at this point I would even just do with a cuddle, touching and oral sex if I cant have the full thing, lol sorry if im being TMI but I just feel writing things down and help to get my thoughts in order

I hope I dont offend anyone and I hope noone judges me