i dont want to be alive anymore

i dont want to be alive anymore .. whats the pooint my lifeis full of disappointments .... how can someone sit here and do such wrong to a person who doesn nothing but love them with all their heart ... my ex boyfriend thats who ... tells me he odesnt want to be with me yet ... wtf does not yet mean ... tells me it would be easier if i didnt live here and to move away and to move in the back but he will use me and that seems to be ok ... iwas in such a good mood til he came home... how can he sit there and watch me cry ... ball and not be able to breathe? how .. .says he isnt him around me ...wtf does that mean? im sooo done .... this isnt fair he is asleep whilei get to ball my ass off at my computer ...tells me to move to the back room why doesnt he then this isnt fair ..... tells me its harder to be here hahaha thats funny he never is here ... how did my life turn into this ...,how does he string me along as just his back up? as nothing... how can someone do that to someone .... sit there and watch them cry to sleep? EVERYNIGHT? and be ok with it ????.... how cna you just stop out of no where caring about someone.....Where am i suppose to move to where? theres no where for me to go.... the back room really? its this room in the backyard all aone ....  am in no shape to be alone! ... i hate being alone i fucken hate it .... he knows this he told me it was ok if i moved in his room and now its not? reallyyyy .... why let me then ....why would someone do this to me im a nice girl i really am ....i still do everything for him he asks me to and for what ... for what ... fr him to tell me i mae him not me? when believe me he hasnt ever changed ... how can someone sit here and let me feel like this its not fair ... its not fair to me