I dont like this

I am unemployed so i have no money, have been unable to get work and since ive had only one job which i lost right away due to circumstances out of my control, I have been depressed, thats not the issue, see in my family im the punching bag, physical, emotional, mental. and we have alot of fights sometimes, just this last time i got bit HARD, on my dominant hands thumb, its been over 2 days and there is no discolor but i still cant feel it. Not one of these assholes is willing to take me to a doctor, nor give me any kind of bus fair, or advice on how to get there, ive called my clinic and will have to walk a good 3 miles to get there, and weve been having record heat. the entire fight only got to physical due to the resident narcassist being a dick. long story short would not listen because he must be right and im a F***ing retard, all becuase he refused to listen when he was trying to get his new tablet to connect to the wifi. he came to the conclusion it was my fault no matter what else happened, and in the end the f***ing idiot Typed the password wrong, that was my first suggestion. obviously this didnt even warrent the mass beating i recieved and i am worried about having permanent nerve damage. either way just another day at me house.