i dont know 1
ag im writing this to hear wats going on inside. I have feelings of self doubt, i dont know why. sometimes i look at the mirror and wonder who i have become. i do it daily. somehow the past 6 years were the worst. I dont even know if i can call them years. I dont want to be close to anyone. i dont want them to see me like i see myself. i dont want them to see the pain and have pain because of that. im really having a hard time. demons hauting me and gosts everywhere.
I dont understand why im schizo.
I think it happen and then the rest happend.
I wish I could go back in time. Get treatment earlier. I totally lost myself. I wouldnt say Im a bad person. Im just in pain, but i dont let anybody know. I pretend . I pretend alot.
today im really tired of this shit.
I feel alone because i pretend all the time, but i have made peace with it. I have never really writen a journal entry. Im just saying what i never say today
. talking to myself
peace celest
I dont understand why im schizo.
I think it happen and then the rest happend.
I wish I could go back in time. Get treatment earlier. I totally lost myself. I wouldnt say Im a bad person. Im just in pain, but i dont let anybody know. I pretend . I pretend alot.
today im really tired of this shit.
I feel alone because i pretend all the time, but i have made peace with it. I have never really writen a journal entry. Im just saying what i never say today
. talking to myself
peace celest
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i understand.
i go through times when i really don\'t get why these voices and visions happen, and i say `why me\'
but i know when i am feeling down, i worry about people seeing it in me, but i will say this disease makes me my own worst enemy, and the people i love and trust will always see the good inside of me.
jy moet aanhou om jou gawes in die gesig. ten spyte van die duiwels nie. sit in jou joernaal wat goed oor jouself, nie net die slegte, en hou die balans in die lewe.
jy is dapper, intelligent, en uniek. vier dit!
peace celeste!