i dont care.

is it bad that i just genuinely dont care about anything that much?
the only thing that is constant in my life is the fact that i go on here like daily. and thats barely constant. 
i wouldnt care if just suddenly my life was torn from under me and i had to start all over again. 
people that i have been friends with for 9 years. and i love them so much.
but lately, i really wouldnt care if i never saw them again. 
i havent even gotten in i fight with them or anything, i just developed like this for everything. i dont care about school, my friends, my family (especially my brother). 
and im not suicidal or anything, if someone killed me right now, i wouldnt be mad at them. and i have a pretty good life compared to most people. 
i guess i just have been put down one to many times. someone just pushed my last button. and i didnt even realize, but this is just my less painful wa of saying goodbye. 
because im going to boarding school next year, so starting to shut them out is ust my way of dealing with my emotions. and its probably a bad thing, but because of it, i dont care enough to try and fix it. 
i am ready to start fresh. 
thats all, im done venting.