I don't want to eat!

My anorexia is getting worse. All i can think about is being thin again. I lost all the weight i gained, and now i need to loss more. i can't stand my body. its disgusting the way i look. I need to take control of my life. I know its bad to diet for me, but i can't stop. i need to throw up the food i ate for lunch, i need to never eat again until i am skinny enough. I can do it, i can stay healthy. being fat isn't healthy, nope nope. I know what i am doing, i just wish ppl would leave me alone now. I don't want the help! they just want to make me fat again. they want to undo all my hard work to stay pretty. No one cares about how i feel! 
^ that is what i have been thinking the last few days. my mind is freaking out and i dont know what to do.