I don't understand my feelings

I just wanted some space a break...1st he doesn't and wants to work on it but then he realizes hey I can continue to stay out not helping or doing nothing without the arguing so yeah let's take a break but we still married so I'm only agreeing to staying out your way... in reality I sat back and seen if u really wanted to save your marriage your family? Not u just for self... so there's a threat about me getting out out because u not on the lease so you've had to stay hid in the house... Now you feel like I don't care and I'm cheating because I keep my distance... you caused this and now I feel nothing because I'm constantly catching you in lies and you not doing nothing a husband/father should be doing... you are to old for the BS you doing and it makes me feel nothing....