I don\'t think so!

I shan't ever marry. This I know for sure! I'm sure he finds me a burden! Something repulsive, and disgusting that he dear not go near to. He walks by me all the time! And not a word that he utters from his lips, is addressed to me! why? because I can not speak? because I'm retarded? I weigh more than the asian girls around him, and therefore I am a fat blimp? What in the world am I mean't to do, to make him notice me? To make him see I exist? I must seem stupid. For who am I to complain when I have never been in a relationship. And never  had my heart broken, from being dumped? I know alot of people would say I know nothing of pain. But I have known it all my life. Time and time again I have been rejected, and evertime it gets harder for me to get closer to people. At high School I sat with the retards (and I mean those who are down syndromed, I also could not speak to them! Ha!) because the other kids rejected me for being different. When I'm at church I feel rejected because the majority of people are Chinese and Korean, and they will end up talking with people from their own race. And those few who are of my race don't speak to me because I am who I am. (and he is in that category.)So being socially rejected I have felt much pain, which has made me feel pain through not being able to find that special guy in my life. Because I can't speak to them.So hence my life shall be forever one of solitude.