I Don't Know When It Happened
The following poem was written by Christine Ross for her son Luke. I have noticed lately that I seem more able to smile... I hurt... I will always hurt... I have come to believe that is just part of my normal... and I know for many of you it is the same... but blessedly I believe that I am letting the joy outweigh the pain.. There was a time I would never have thought this day would come.. actually I might have been offended if someone had told me it would... now I'm just grateful I can remember the good more than the bad... This poem speaks so well my heart. Hugs Elissa Cara's Mom For Always
I'M NOT SURE WHEN IT HAPPENED
By Christine Ross
I'm not sure when it happened But I do know that it's real. Somewhere between then and now Something changed the way I feel. I don't cry every single day But these eyes of mine still cry. And I don't have a need to ask That same old question 'why?' To know he lived a good life Has given me some peace. And I've accepted that he died But his spirit never ceased. Passing years erased the anger Of loosing what was mine By receiving lots of comfort Knowing that... "it was his time". The nights have been more gentle. The dawn has turned to day. I've finally embraced this pain That will never go away. Realizing I can't change things I have buried all my guilt. I've forgiven all the others That didn't know the way I felt. I've learned to live without him, Just because I've had no choice. His pictures bring me happiness Just like the memory of his voice. I've heard his laughter in my own Although I thought I never would. I've seen his smile in my own smile Although I thought I never could. That stabbing pain within my heart Has turned into a dulling ache. The breath I used to gasp for Has quieted to a slower pace. Those deep dark thoughts that haunted me, The ones of death and fear and time, Have found a special place to hide In the corners of my mind. I don't know when it happened But I know I'm glad it did. I have found the "peace in knowing" That he died, but that... HE LIVED!
Written by Christine Ross 2008
In Memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979-2001
I'M NOT SURE WHEN IT HAPPENED
By Christine Ross
I'm not sure when it happened But I do know that it's real. Somewhere between then and now Something changed the way I feel. I don't cry every single day But these eyes of mine still cry. And I don't have a need to ask That same old question 'why?' To know he lived a good life Has given me some peace. And I've accepted that he died But his spirit never ceased. Passing years erased the anger Of loosing what was mine By receiving lots of comfort Knowing that... "it was his time". The nights have been more gentle. The dawn has turned to day. I've finally embraced this pain That will never go away. Realizing I can't change things I have buried all my guilt. I've forgiven all the others That didn't know the way I felt. I've learned to live without him, Just because I've had no choice. His pictures bring me happiness Just like the memory of his voice. I've heard his laughter in my own Although I thought I never would. I've seen his smile in my own smile Although I thought I never could. That stabbing pain within my heart Has turned into a dulling ache. The breath I used to gasp for Has quieted to a slower pace. Those deep dark thoughts that haunted me, The ones of death and fear and time, Have found a special place to hide In the corners of my mind. I don't know when it happened But I know I'm glad it did. I have found the "peace in knowing" That he died, but that... HE LIVED!
Written by Christine Ross 2008
In Memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979-2001
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