I Don't Know How To Feel..
Right when something in my life goes right, something else messes it up..
I hate not being able to just go to school like a normal person. I hate being so constantly emotional and unaware because I'm so drugged up all the time. I hate this god awful pain, and I hate everything that goes along with it. I'm getting worse and I'm so scared.. And my only friend is still on the psych unit for depression. She's been having such an awful time there and what pisses me off is that I can only talk to her for five minutes once a week. This is the worse time of her entire life and I can't even be there for her because of the stupid regulations.
We're having the worse week of our lives and can't even talk to each other about it..
I miss her so much. And I miss the way things used to be, when we were both had the lives we wanted before everything changed. I know we're in totally different situations but if I'm this miserable I can't imagine how much pain she's in.. :/
What if one of us wakes up one day and the other one is gone? :'(
I hate not being able to just go to school like a normal person. I hate being so constantly emotional and unaware because I'm so drugged up all the time. I hate this god awful pain, and I hate everything that goes along with it. I'm getting worse and I'm so scared.. And my only friend is still on the psych unit for depression. She's been having such an awful time there and what pisses me off is that I can only talk to her for five minutes once a week. This is the worse time of her entire life and I can't even be there for her because of the stupid regulations.
We're having the worse week of our lives and can't even talk to each other about it..
I miss her so much. And I miss the way things used to be, when we were both had the lives we wanted before everything changed. I know we're in totally different situations but if I'm this miserable I can't imagine how much pain she's in.. :/
What if one of us wakes up one day and the other one is gone? :'(
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Emily I am sorry you can\'t talk to your friend. I know you miss her. I hope she is able to leave soon or at least have longer visits.
It must be hard to go to school in so much pain. Wishes for it to get better real soon.
Thank you.. She called me tonight and may be getting released soon, and if not I get to see her on Saturday. :)