I don't get it
I am starting to feel the sadness and anger over what happened. I can't believe that she would end it like this but, then again, I am not surprised by it either. She has been doing this all along, cheating on me, putting me second. I let her. I always took her back and even then, we never had conversations. I never demand she treat me better, or ask to see her cell phone or Facebook. I don't know WHY I didn't. How does a person go 13 years with someone, and then sit here typing a journal, and wonder about how they didn't know they had zero self-esteem for 13 years?
I have wanted to email and text her lately, but I have not. I just want to call her a bunch of nasty names, but to what end? It won't get me anywhere. She planned her trip to SC to run off with this guy, and she is "fine". She already lined up someone better and probably more financially sound. Where am I? Boxing up and donating her stuff. The more I have boxed, the more stuff I see if missing. She has been planning to leave me like this for awhile.
I noticed on FB that our mutual friends have dropped me. I don't get on FB nearly a much as I used to, but that hurt too. These people just siding with her, and calling it a day. Like it's NORMAL to meet someone online, pack up, get engaged, THEN move to be with them. Like that's normal.
My sister text me about what is going on. I just told her we broke up. She asked me about a new guy because my ex said something on FB I guess. I told her I didn't want to talk about it. Of course she had to start up with "I told you she would do this again" and all that other stuff that she would say. I cut her off and said we can talk later but now is not the time. I love my sister but she is currently getting divorced from my BIL and there is speculation he cheated, but it is not confirmed. Her opinion of people who cheat is the only thing she will focus on, and so I don't want to have her going off about my ex because I feel hurt. What I would want is for my sister to let me feel hurt and talk about it without all the judgmental commentary.
Well this is my first journal. I will probably write more.
Thank you if you read it.
I have wanted to email and text her lately, but I have not. I just want to call her a bunch of nasty names, but to what end? It won't get me anywhere. She planned her trip to SC to run off with this guy, and she is "fine". She already lined up someone better and probably more financially sound. Where am I? Boxing up and donating her stuff. The more I have boxed, the more stuff I see if missing. She has been planning to leave me like this for awhile.
I noticed on FB that our mutual friends have dropped me. I don't get on FB nearly a much as I used to, but that hurt too. These people just siding with her, and calling it a day. Like it's NORMAL to meet someone online, pack up, get engaged, THEN move to be with them. Like that's normal.
My sister text me about what is going on. I just told her we broke up. She asked me about a new guy because my ex said something on FB I guess. I told her I didn't want to talk about it. Of course she had to start up with "I told you she would do this again" and all that other stuff that she would say. I cut her off and said we can talk later but now is not the time. I love my sister but she is currently getting divorced from my BIL and there is speculation he cheated, but it is not confirmed. Her opinion of people who cheat is the only thing she will focus on, and so I don't want to have her going off about my ex because I feel hurt. What I would want is for my sister to let me feel hurt and talk about it without all the judgmental commentary.
Well this is my first journal. I will probably write more.
Thank you if you read it.
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I\'m so sorry this happened to you. I would be deeply hurt too. I hope you heal from this soon.