I do not understand

Today has not been good all day, and I do not  understand. 
I have been teary eyed and just down all day.  Its been windy, icy and cold so have not felt like stay outside too long.
I pet Spot and Ike, tell them soon this snowy icy corral will go away, and we will do something together.  I feed and water them, clean their shelter, fill it with more straw and just do not feel up beat today.  I do not understand why or what is going on.
I sewed on the offices new curtains (the old ones got washed and fell apart), I am making it my office/craft room soon.  I want to do so many things, get my bathroom finished, paint the dining room but its too cold to open up air to paint.
I am afraid I can not take care of this place alone.  I want to ride my horse so bad but too icy.  I hate this feeling. 
 
Please Roger if you can hear me or help me do something.  Please GOd assure everything is going to be alright.  Amen