I do not know yet where I fit in here

I fall under many areas, some not clinicaaly diagnosed but all the symptoms are there, such as depression and OCD. I also have a very verbally abusive wife towards me, and things are falling apart there. It is Christmas and people are supposed to be joyous, yet I cannot keep emotions in check . I guess, I am just wanting groups to be a part of to help me with difficult areas.