I did go but not really

Well honey, I went to the outting . I was fine until someone says how r u doing. I know that everyone doesnt know that u r not here with me anymore.Well i help Benita get her house picked up than I was ready to leave,but I did I went with her to pick Sam's mom from the airport. When we got back I was going to leave than but my truck was blocked so I stay outside while everyone stay inside for the most part. Lisa and Vicky came out there and Benita hang outside with me to I just didnt want to take her away from everyone else . I think it was always easier to do these thing bc I could text u anytime I wanted. Now ur not just a text or phone call away and babe it sucks really bad. I never realized how much we really did talk until u not here to talk to anymore. I hope that I get to come be with u as soon as I can. I miss u so much. I had to go get ur brother last night bc he had to much to drink and I didnt want him walking on the highway in the dark. I know u would of helped him so that is way I went and did it. I am back to not sleeping very well again. Oh yeah ur little Zoey , she is so funny in the morning she comes and gets in bed and rolls over on her back and slepps so more. I know u r telling me that she ur dog not mine but ur the one she played with everynight for half and hour before we went to bed . I hope u r up there having some fishing now since u didnt get much time to do that. I am ready to go on the river and have a some fun fishing. It would be better if u were here to do that with me tho.I guess I will let u go for now sweetheart,I love u so much. Remember u mean the world to me and u r the best thing that has ever happen to me and the kids. We love u lots babe. Love always ur wife