I cry way to often...
As I'm in the final weeks (a place I never thought I would get to), I'm in getting ready mode. The baby's room is pretty much done...her clothes are washed...over 2000 diapers are purchased... I'm now working on organizing the main floor of the house and making room for baby things. This is the "fun" stuff about getting ready for baby, but I cry several times a day :-/ Last night for example, I put together the bouncer seat. I was sitting on the living room floor with the bouncer in front of me and was thinking about having our baby in it very soon. I just started crying. I always start crying out of joy. I've wanted this for so long! I used to sit on the couch and listen to the silence in the house and cry...wonder if my house would always be so quiet...wonder if I'd ever be sitting on the couch and watching my child play on the floor...or holding a sleeping baby. I'm so happy and amazed that I'm 33 weeks pregnant. But then the fear creeps in. I'm so afraid of still birth...of something happening during delivery.... of getting so far and allowing myself to get so excited and open to the idea that we are going to be parents...and then it's all going to be taken away. So, then I cry because I'm scared.
I just want her here. I need to hold her. I've missed her for so long....I want her here.
I just want her here. I need to hold her. I've missed her for so long....I want her here.
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aww, hun. I\'ve been feeling really emotional too and I\'ve got 12 weeks to go. You\'re gonna be holding your baby really soon. Praying for you to have peace about the delivery.
It is very emotional especially when you\'ve waited so long. I look at my baby and know, that barring a miracle, she\'s my last and try to savour every moment. Enjoy these last few weeks until you can hold her in your arms!!!
Its a teary time, these last few weeks. Its also very normal. I was watching a music video that I have seen a million times. My daughter and hubby were there and I bawled. I mean not just teary but bawled. Its ok. I also struggle with the same fears and I am doing a VBAC as well which scares me awful at times. I keep praying when I get like this. I realize that its all in Gods hands. But I must keep reminding myself of that. You are so much more prepared!! I have 3 sleepers for my little guy lol. Hang in there, it will all work out in the end. I wonder who will have theirs first ... you or me? lol Such a wonderful blessing ... your little Grace.
Thanks :-) I just want the pregnancy to be over. It\'s getting physically and emotionally hard. I can\'t wait to hold her. I\'ll never want to let her go :-)
I can\'t believe that your time is almost here. I am excited for you. It sounds like you will make a fantastic Mom!