I cry way to often...

As I'm in the final weeks (a place I never thought I would get to), I'm in getting ready mode.  The baby's room is pretty much done...her clothes are washed...over 2000 diapers are purchased...  I'm now working on organizing the main floor of the house and making room for baby things.  This is the "fun" stuff about getting ready for baby, but I cry several times a day :-/  Last night for example, I put together the bouncer seat.  I was sitting on the living room floor with the bouncer in front of me and was thinking about having our baby in it very soon.  I just started crying.  I always start crying out of joy. I've wanted this for so long!  I used to sit on the couch and listen to the silence in the house and cry...wonder if my house would always be so quiet...wonder if I'd ever be sitting on the couch and watching my child play on the floor...or holding a sleeping baby.  I'm so happy and amazed that I'm 33 weeks pregnant.  But then the fear creeps in.  I'm so afraid of still birth...of something happening during delivery.... of getting so far and allowing myself to get so excited and open to the idea that we are going to be parents...and then it's all going to be taken away.  So, then I cry because I'm scared.
I just want her here.  I need to hold her. I've missed her for so long....I want her here.