I could complain but....

I choose in this moment not to complain..I am going to focus on what I have to be thankful for. I have lost almost 50 pounds.   my zumba classes have grown to capacity. I have been able to bless and encourage so many people's to embrace a more healthy lifestyle. God has used me in more ways that I can ever have imagined! I am starting a kid fitness business as well as getting a personal trainer license. I have pushed to do things that I wouldn't do if I had gotten pregnant. I know more about my purpose in life and while I wait for motherhood I focus full energy on my purpose which is to help other women lose weight. I would not have done any of this if I had a baby right away. My husband has been there even though I am sure that i have been the wife from hell sometimes. i have had so many wonderful experiences like going on cruises or just getting in the car and going on a day trip. I am healthy and enjoy the little things like my first graders giving me hugs and telling me how much of great teacher I am. The blessings if I allow it sometimes outweigh the sadness. This is the space Im in for now.