i cant take it anymore

i feel like nothing i ever do anymore isnt ever good enough for ppl. my counsolor says that i need to change. i need to stop pushinng my friends away. i am so close to giving up and just walking out on everybody. nobody gives two fucks bought how i feeln anymore and everybody tells me i cnt get help because even if i did i still wouuldnt change. i feel soooooo hopeless i want to find a friend that cares and likes me for who i am. my life usto b great i usto b happy but now all i c r dark skys and i cnt find my way out. i need help i need to know that ppl care about me and rnt giving up and walking away....   i feel like i have failed in my life i had my gaurd up and now that all my walls around me have fallen the winnd is blowing me over so strong that i cnt get up and i am fourced to stay on the ground. sommeone help me i dnt wanna give up but im getting really close