I cant even cry
just to warn you im about to let off steam..... I havent taken laxatives, purged, binged or done anything im not suppose to do so why do i feel so crap? ive been so extremely tired this week yet i just cant sleep, i lay wide awake in bed. I strive to stay awake in the day so i sleep at night but i still cant sleep. My head is spinning i fell a bit light headed and my stomach hurts so much its burning and i feel sick! AGHHH what does it matter? i take laxative and i feel crap and i dont take them and i feel crap roll on the weekend wen i can let all the bad out with my laxatives. I dont ask for much just to be able to sleep but apparently thats too much. i so badly want to cut to numb the pain. I ate choclate cookie cake today and now i feel like a lardy cookie i let the chocolate beat me. i lost to a cookie. why why why. I cant even cry i dont expect anyone to care too much why should they?
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am so sorry you arent feeling better while taking better care of yourself it takes time for your body yto recover from the not taking care give it some more time and fight this the feeling good will come :) *hugs*
We do care. Because we are all going through the same miserable crap from this disorder.I feel the same way.But we need to some how change the way our mind think. I don\'t know how yet but if I find an answer I will surely pass it to ya!Hang in there
Oh sweetie you sound so miserble are you on anything for your depression. You need to ask your dr for more support with dealing with it. x