i can't.....

i want to eat...i REALLY do.....i want to eat and be healthy....but i can't....i truly can't.....i can't just eat.....i can't pick up food and eat.....ED's voice is so strong and i feel like i can't eat...the restriction addiction is so strong that i can't eat!!!! my mom is trying to make me and telling me that i need food, but i can't....i can't even fuel my body with cereal....i just can't eat!!! i don't know what to do....i really don't....