I beginning to hate it here

I am beginning to hate where the house where I live with Brad and he is just beyond belief.Lately,he has been downright cruel and I plan to be out the whole day.I do not want to be with him and he is just nasty.I do not love him anymore.I want Peace.i want a separation.It is not working and I am stuck paying all of these bills.We have signed the lease until August and no matter what I do..it is always wrong.This is the way my late mother was to me.That woman was a crackpot and she was hateful.My mother got very jealous of men and this was due to the fact that I lived in another era.I saw this behaviour towards me when I was 8 when she just abandoned me and I have never gottten over it.I am sorry to say this.if she was living.I would not take care of her and I mean it.It is not my repsonbiliby that she acted this way.She could have gotten help.My late father in 1987 left me 5,000.00.I have never seen it at all.Because she blew it on gambling,and alcohol.That money was mine and if it were given to me,I would be on my own and without this piece of garbage that I am with.I refuse to be with him anymore.So please do not talk to me about love.Marriage is better for the man.It always has been the man.ANd the man is one who profits from it.WHere else can a man get a  maid? Someone to clean the house and do his laundry and I am not going to be responbile for anyones social life.If you do not have any close friends..that is your problem.But please do me a big favor..do not look to me as your final solution to get friends.There are things that I do everyday and you would not enjoy them.So remember this guys--I am a person --not a doll and I refuse to be consumed by you.You are only a man.And do this senior citizen a favor..please have money of your own and your own bank account.I am not going to pay your bills and I refuse to send your kids to college.This is what the biological parents does.Not the 2nd wife.And tell your kids that I am not their banker.They can work and put a little money away a week.I refuse to give them anymore money.The bank is closed.Please leave me alone.If you do not have 20.00 left from your check for the week.this is a sign of trouble my friends.but do not come to me at all.I am on disability and right now I am broke--still paying his bills because he is lazy and if I were married..I wouldnt pay his credit bills either.They are his problems not mine.I refuse to get involved.And if anyone of you thinks its cool to hit a woman--dont you dare.Because if this happens..I will call the sheriff and you will go to jail.Then You will lose your job and the house.You will not be allowed to come back.What gives all of your men the right to hit? Who do you think you are? When all of your lazy men make money like Donald Trump,have a mansion like Mar a Lago--then call me you duds! We will talk.