I am whole again.
I just had a dream, it was a very strange dream that was hard to follow but it sent me a powerful message that somehow unlocked things that was taken from me for many years. I have my self esteem, my self respect back, that part of you that helps you be the best that you can be back. I realize how much was taken from me because of how I was belittled and deratted for so many years. It made me realize that I let people strip me down like a pack of vultures would a dead animal.
I've wrote in my journal that I felt like less of a person, not whole. I thought it was just because of how my wife died and the circumstances around that period of my life. It wasn't just that but the years of me conceding to people instead of doing what's best for me. I don't have to do that anymore, I shouldn't have let things happen the way they did in the first place but I had the weight of the world on my shoulders and I was overwhelmed. Not again, I am whole again.
I've wrote in my journal that I felt like less of a person, not whole. I thought it was just because of how my wife died and the circumstances around that period of my life. It wasn't just that but the years of me conceding to people instead of doing what's best for me. I don't have to do that anymore, I shouldn't have let things happen the way they did in the first place but I had the weight of the world on my shoulders and I was overwhelmed. Not again, I am whole again.
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I just now realized that I\'ve been torn apart by vultures. I forgot who I used to be because I haven\'t been that man in many years. I let people belittle me and derate me in order to avoid confrontation. I see this now because of a dream I have had, a subconscious happening that took place which I am truly grateful. Now I have to put myself back together. Change who I am, back to who I was. I\'ve been a different person and I\'ve found myself, It\'s liberating. You live a lie for so long that your life becomes a lie and you become less than > who you are. I had to write this down as soon as I could.
I wrote this down right after the dream.
I am SO happy that things are looking up for you and that you are back. Please keep that smiling face. I really missed you! Hugs GB
We haven\'t heard from you since this post? Are you still doing well? I worry when people kind of disappear. Hugs GB