I am trying so hard.

I am trying so hard to be every thing my sis wants me to be. I fail over and over because I have finally figured out that none of the stuff she wants me to be is the me I am. I am who I am and I am in a place where I can tell her she will not like the fact that I am not ever going to be the person she wants me to be. I am tired of  always being the one who is asked to change herself. I drink and I smoke but I am not hurting anyone. My sis is a born again Christian who is on my ass constantly about the things I do or don't do.  I can't take her constant judgement and lecturing. I am who I am and I am finally at a place where I can like myself. So stop bitching at me all the time Sue and I will have a better attitude toward you.