I am tired

Roger I thought of all the things I have done this last week and realized when neighbor said "this is so much for you if Roger was here to help you" but you know what I am doing you never did anyway...How realizing that puts it into perspective.
I also realized when you were here I did do less and some things did not get done as you were re-tired....and that is what killed you - no exercise - but I guess you know that by now.  I wondered if you being gone realize that now and what difference or does it matter once you are gone.
I shoveled manure in a pile in first corral, shoveled scum outta the pond as it needs to be drained somewhat as its backing up into pasture.  I need to find someone to show me how to start pump.  I need to find Railroad ties to replace 8-10 of them, get fence wire instead of boards, and get help putting up hot wire around rest of property to help with fire hazard with tall grasses as this year will not be so wet, I joint compounded the bathroom than repaint, I need to paint wood trim in hallway, and porch again.  And plant some seeds for new flowers along edges where I buried Mitzy, Jessie's ashes and your remaining ashes...I think I can plant some rocks, fence around them to keep deer out of them.  They sure have been rubbing new aspen terribly..I placed a section of fencing around them...but see I did not get it together good enough as Micki came over and I got distracted...
I mowed lawn, I racked dead grasses and weeds.  Than on Saturday went to community park and racked more leaves and dead grass, painted the shed and watershed.  Ate hobo stew jeepers made - that was good but was so tired....ANd than next day cleaned up more stuff outside than Micki and Pat came to have me go with them to get a ton of hay.  It was actually my hay I paid for but I do not need it, they do.  They will repay me when new crop comes up. 
I am excited as property taxes go reduced down to $477.35 instead of $2038.89/yr yeah which means my house payment goes down a way bunch although mortgage is being taken over as name change on credit union they want me to pay the same this time and they will reimburse me but I am not going to do that as the old credit union sent me a payment book as did the new name one - well I made copies of paperwork from County court house on property tax change, calculated it myself and am going to send to the old one copies of the new payment coupon with my calculations and show it was approved - got reimbursed 541.35 so taxes for this year are paid in full/  SO heard I need new struts and shocks possibly recommended but will have CHris double check that so maybe its already gone...but I am going to get RRties and 100' of fencing.  Ennis said he would come and dig the holes once I get the posts....and DOnnie took your bow for payment to help me out...
So do you see how come I am tired.... Tomorrow I am going to a classmate/ex co workers funeral than get to town and get some things done ...
Washed car too - and windows but did not get inside done real welll... always tomorrow and next day...
I need to get to my couch and relax....