I AM TERRIFIED, I NEED HELP NOW!!!!
HELLO AGAIN MY DEAR FRIENDS, THIS IS MY SECOND TRY TO SEND OUT A JOURNAL! I JUST SPENT OVER 45MINUTES, THE OTHER DAY WRITING IN MY JOURNAL AND WHEN I WENT TO SEND IT, IT DISAPPEARED!! I WAS VERY FRUSTRATED AND SORE. SO I PRAY THAT THIS ONE WILL GO THROUGH, AT LEAST I HAVE BEEN TRYING. LOL WELL, ALL IN ALL I AM BASICALLY DOING THE SAME HEALTH WISE, SEVERE FM PAIN 24/7, ALL OVER MY BODY. THEN WE CAN'T FORGET THE CHRONIC FATIGUE ISSUE! SHIT, I AM SOOO TIRED OF BEING SOOO VERY EXHAUSTED ALL OF THE TIME, IT IS AFFECTING MY WORD FINDING, MY READING, WELL I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO DO IT ANYMORE AS I FORGET THE SENTENCE THAT I JUST READ ETC. I AM SURE THAT YOU CAN ALL RELATE TO THIS WAY OF LIFE. I DO THOUGH HAVE A SERIOUS PROBLEM, AND I AM ASKING THOSE OF YOU THAT READ MY JOURNAL TO PLEASE THINK SERIOUSLY ABOUT WHAT I AM TELLING YOU AND WHAT YOU WOULD GIVE ME ANY IDEAS, OR POSSIBLY WHAT YOU WOULD DO IN THE SAME SITUATION??? WELL, HERE GOES.... I HAVE BEEN SEEING MY DR. NOW FOR ABOUT 7-9YRS. HE IS THE DR. THAT HAS DIAGNOSED ME WITH MY FM AND CHRONIC FATIGUE, AND MYOFASICAL PAIN. HE IS A VERY KIND, GENEROUS, MOST UNDERSTANDING DR. I HAVE EVER HAD!! HE TRULY UNDERSTANDS CHRONIC PAIN, HE EVEN OPENED UP A PAIN CLINIC IN MY AREA, BLESS HIS HEART!! HIS WIFE ALSO HAVE FM AND CHRONIC FATIGUE, AND HE NOW HAS ABOUT 150 PAIN PATIENTS, MOSTLY WITH FM AND M.E. WELL, WHAT HAS HAPPENED IS THAT MAJORITY OF HIS PATIENTS ARE ON DIFFERENT MEDS, AND ALOT ARE ON NARCOTICS FOR THERE SEVERE UNBEARABLE PAIN. HE DOES TRY MANY, MANY DIFFERENT MEDS ON HIS PATIENTS AND DOES HIS UTMOST BEST TO HELP FIND THE BEST ALTERNATIVE FOR EACH AND EVERY ONE OF HIS PATIENTS. WHAT HAS HAPPENED IS THAT SOMEHOW, THE COLLEGE OF PHYSICIANS AND SURGEONS, HAS LOOKED INTO THE AMOUNT OF NARCOTICS THAT HE HAS BEEN PRESCRIBING. AND THIS ALSO HAS HAPPENDED PREVIOUSLY TO MY DEAR DR. MANY YEARS AGO. BUT, MY DR. BELIEVES THAT A HUMAN BEING IN SUCH DEBILITATING PAIN SHOULD AS A HUMAN BEING BE HELPED TO ELEVIATE SOME OF THERE SEVERE PAIN, AND THAT IT IS UNETHICAL AS A DR. NOT TO HELP THESE PAIN PATIENTS!! THIS TO ME IS AN ADVOCATE, AND VERY CARING AND UNDERSTANDING DR. IN MY EYES, THAT CARES DEEPLY ABOUT HIS PATIENTS. HE IS NOT OVER PRESCRIBING, HE IS JUST HELPING PEOPLE LIKE YOU AND ME TO TRY AND HAVE THE BEST QUALITY OF LIFE AS WE CAN GET!!! AND IF IT TAKES NARCOTICS TO DO THAT, THEN SHALL BE IT!! DO YOU AGREE WITH ME???? I DO HOPE THAT MANY OF MY FRIENDS ARE TAKING THE TIME TO LISTEN TO WHAT I AM SAYING. TO ME THIS MEANS A GREAT DEAL IN MY HEALTH AND MY WELL BEING, AND I AM TERRIFIED TO LOSE THIS DR. THEY HAVE TOLD HIM THAT HE CANNOT WRITE ANYMORE TRIPLICATE PRESCRIPTIONS, OTHERWISE NARCOTICS, STARTING SEPT. 1ST.2008!! FOR 3 YRS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WELL, THIS IS NOT WHAT US SUFFERERS NEEDED TO HEAR, HE HAS APPROXIMATELY 150 PAIN PATIENTS, THAT ARE GOING TO BE LEFT ALONE, SCARED, ANXIOUS, DEPRESSED, AND WITH SEVERE PAIN TO TRY TO FIND ANOTHER DR. RE: OUR HEALTH ISSUES!!! I AND OTHERS HAVE STRESSED THIS TO MY SPECIAL DR. RE: FINDING A NEW DR. THAT WILL ALSO PRESCRIBE NARCOTICS FOR MY SERIOUS PAIN AND HE HAS SAID THAT HE WILL BE FINDING US ALL NEW DR.S!! I AM PRAYING THAT THIS IS GOING TO BE THE CASE! BUT THEN, I THINK WELL WHO ELSE IS GOING TO WANT TO TAKE ON 150 PATIENTS WITH SEVERE CHRONIC PAIN AND PRESCRIBE THIS AMOUNT OF NARCOTICS ALSO??? SCARY STUFF!! WE DO HAVE A PLAN, WE WERE ALL ASKED TO WRITE A LETTER TO THE COLLEGE OF PHYSICIANS AND SURGEONS, EXPLAINING OUR SITUATION!! THEN AS MANY OF US THAT CAN GO DOWN TO THE LEGISLATURE AND PROTEST WILL BE DOING THAT ROUTE ALSO!! ANOTHER REASON THAT I AM WRITING THIS IS THAT "IT COULD HAPPEN TO YOU ALSO!!!!" THERE ARE MANY DR.S NOW THAT THINK THAT WE ARE ALL DRUG SEEKERS, AND DR. THAT LOOK DOWN ON US AS IF IT I S IN OUR HEAD!! WELL, DAMN IT, IT SURE IS STRESSING US OUT ENOUGH IN OUR HEAD TO HAVE TO GIVE US AN AMAZING AMOUNT OF PAIN SINCE ALL OF THIS HAS COME TO OUR ATTENTION!! I AM TRULY SORRY TO HAVE GONE ON AND ON REGARDING THIS URGENT MATTER THAT WE ARE FACING, BUT I AM PRAYING THAT ANYONE OF YOU CAN OR WILL HAVE SOME IDEAS FOR ALL OF US FACING THIS TERRIFYING SITUATION!! ONE MORE FOOTNOTE, I AM ALSO VERY SADDENED TO SAY THAT ALREADY ONE OF THE SUFFERERS THAT IS FACING THIS DILEMNA HAS ENDED HIS LIFE WITH SUICIDE!! THIS IS SERIOUS STUFF THAT I AM TALKING ABOUT AND I THINK IT AFFECTS OR WILL AFFECT ALL OF YOU ALSO IN SOME FUTURE DATE, I PRAY NOT..... FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART I WANT TO THANK SOOO MANY OF YOU THAT READ AND RESPOND TO MY CRY FOR HELP, I WILL TRULY BE SOOO VERY THANKFUL TO ALL MY FRIENDS HERE AT DAILY STRENGTH!! I AM SORRY THAT THIS HAS BEEN A VERY LONG JOURNAL, BUT I HAD TO GET MY POINT ACROSS, AND THANKYOU TO ALL THAT RESPOND TO HELP ME AND MANY OTHERS!! LOVE FROM SUE TO ALL OF MY SISTER SUFFERERS!!! XXXXOOOO
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