I am still \"up right.\"

I’m scared of going to work tonight. I have a meeting with upper level rank, they work 8am till 5pm and I work 11pm till 7am. I had to push my surgery back. I do not know if this meeting is a slap on the wrist, suspension without pay, or an end. I can not keep the surgery date if I can not pay for it, it is elective.