I am sooo nervous

Today is Monday.  I am trying to think that all the thoughts that are pouring into my head right now are just thoughts.  I am having surgery on Wednesday morning and that is that.  I will be fine.  I need to stop worrying about this surgery. Many people have this type of surgery and do just fine.  I am so frustrated that I am like this.  Why?  I am mad at my husband.  My step daughter is sick.  He made her a doctor's appointment for tomorrow at 4 which means I have to take her or her mom because he works.  He doesn't want her to go to the walk in clinic tonight to get something for a possible sinus infection.  How can a dad deny a kid medical treatment.  That just pisses me off to no end.  Crap is going to hit the fan tonight when she finds out that I can't bring her to the walk in clinic.  I don't want him at my surgery.  I also have a lot of anxiety right now.  Thank goodness I am seeing my therapist.  I had a stupid panic attack walking my daughter up to the school door today.  Hopefully, tomorrow will be better.  I was thinking to have the ablation procedure done.  This is permanent.  I can't.  I don't want my tubes tied either.  I don't want any more kids.  My stomach has been hurting soooo bad this whole weekend.  I am a mess today.  I am only going to think about this right now and when I am with my therapist today.  No more.  I am going to enjoy my day.