I am so unhappy

It's been a long haul with my brother and grandaughter here. I have a huge mess to clean up and nobody to help. My brother won't even talk to me today, and I found out that the girl told him that I have been discussing going back home.
I so hate it when people are mad at me, and it seems all I run into here are people that are angry. Whenever people get angry with me I feel as if that is my whole life: that I've never been good enough for anyone. People walk all over me, abuse me, betray me and I'm the one that isn't good enough.
I just need to go home! I just hate living here!
But just cleaning up this mess is going to be nearly impossible by myself. I'm so angry I can't breathe!
When I told my husband that I was leaving him, he withdrew any assistance from me. I had little money, no proper clothing, no furniture. I slept on the floor for the first couple of months. I struggled for years to get re-established on my own.
It's all gone now. I'm back to the place where I have little money, few resourses, and another huge mess to clean up by myself with no help.