I am so tired
Car broke down again. Broken drive belt and learned it also needs a new pulley. Yay. So it won't start now, either. Was hoping to get more of my "goals" completed and also apply for two jobs today. Instead, the morning was good and the afternoon shot to hell ... missed wirk and once it was dark, couldn't move car to garge to work on it. It couldn't wait til tomorrow to break when at least I'd have two days free of work. Right now, I'm tired, frustrated and sad ... everything thing I work on toward progressa nd damage control ends up going to hell in a handbasket. Still have a deep feeling of peace about the "overall" but also much (recent) disillusionment. Later for that. I'm tired and sick of working on cars.
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Rest up and take very good care. Moment by moment is all we must manage. I have been surprised how PTSD takes such severe circumstances to be established but once in place the numbness is literally lifesaving and the prospect of death is no longer an issue as whatever will be will be leaving me to focus on simply survival.
Gentle ((hugs)) shared.
:-) Patricia
I really relate to the comment about having a deep feeling of peace even though something pretty big is going wrong. That\'s progress on both our parts.
I also should post a clean up garage goal. Thanks for inspiring me. :)
It seems like we always get those surprises when we really want to accomplish something important.The car will get fix , you will get some rest and will able to get back to your goals.It is good you are at peace.Hugs