I am so angry!
When I was 22 I was raped and a virgin at the time fast forward three years thinking I was over it by now but apparently my body is not over it and I am not sure how to get over it. I've been with my boyfriend for about a year and half and yesterday I felt that it was ready but apparently my body won't relax enough for anything to happen. I think I have come to the fact that its never going to happen. Mentally I feel over it but physically I don't think it will happen. I am glad I have a boyfriend who is patient.
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I\'m so sorry sweetie.
Life is just not fair or easy.
You realize that as much as you worked hard on mentally getting over this awful act of violence its there in the back of your mind, as perhaps your body is responding to the mind being overwhelmed by such a tragic occurrence.
I\'m wondering if you tried therapy? I know that word is used a lot & its not always the answer but in many cases it helps.
I have a very close friend who is more like a sister who has been in therapy on & off for yrs. Do to her childhood. It has helped her in ways nothing or no one else could.
My heart breaks for you as your so young to have such hard times.
This topic touches a nerve with me as its more common then people realize & most of the time the person committing the act walks away with no punishment or punishment that does not match the crime. Leaving behind innocent victims who are often haunted.
If you have not reached out for help please consider it. You have so much on your plate & you deserve to be happy. I know its not always easy & finding the right fit in a good therapist is not always easy but it may be worth a try.
In the mean time know your in my prayers. Sending gentle hugs & a shoulder to cry on if ever your in need.
God bless sweetie & take good care.
Sammyy