I AM NOT INTO CHRISTMAS At All THIS YEAR...
Last year was the first best christmas Erica and I had since Ryan has been gone. Wow, I can't believe 5 of them have come and gone.
Last week my dad had a heart attack and had to have an emergency operation. 22 yrs ago he had a heart by pass and had used up his main artery from his leg with a few others veins from his legs. All arteries to his heart were blocked. The Docter said he has Serious heart disease. Right away he had to have 2 stints put in, which wouldn't last long enough. It only kept him alive and time to get a team of Doctors together to figure out how in when to do another by pass. Anyway the Doctor who gave dad his by pass was on Monday, 2 day's ago..I've been in a dither ever since, feeling numb to it all. My dad is doing well..He just feels weak, he's 76 yrs young. lol...My mom and I usually cook, she canseled christmas dinner..I'll still cook for us here at home, Erica will be flying home christmas Eve....Oh, well we will manage. I alway's said after Ryan died, I would beable to handle anything that comes my way...Ryan, my son was my first and only person who left this earth, which I believe now, he is over looking after his family members through whats to come our way....Ryan loved and was so proud of his family, I know he was the one God picked to do that job.... I'm sorry if I've been speechless through these darn Holiday's.. They will never be the same.. Christmas will come and go.. Another year closer to Ryan..The longer Ryan is gone the closer I am to him, YES YES YES!!!!!! LOVE YOU ALL! kelly
Last week my dad had a heart attack and had to have an emergency operation. 22 yrs ago he had a heart by pass and had used up his main artery from his leg with a few others veins from his legs. All arteries to his heart were blocked. The Docter said he has Serious heart disease. Right away he had to have 2 stints put in, which wouldn't last long enough. It only kept him alive and time to get a team of Doctors together to figure out how in when to do another by pass. Anyway the Doctor who gave dad his by pass was on Monday, 2 day's ago..I've been in a dither ever since, feeling numb to it all. My dad is doing well..He just feels weak, he's 76 yrs young. lol...My mom and I usually cook, she canseled christmas dinner..I'll still cook for us here at home, Erica will be flying home christmas Eve....Oh, well we will manage. I alway's said after Ryan died, I would beable to handle anything that comes my way...Ryan, my son was my first and only person who left this earth, which I believe now, he is over looking after his family members through whats to come our way....Ryan loved and was so proud of his family, I know he was the one God picked to do that job.... I'm sorry if I've been speechless through these darn Holiday's.. They will never be the same.. Christmas will come and go.. Another year closer to Ryan..The longer Ryan is gone the closer I am to him, YES YES YES!!!!!! LOVE YOU ALL! kelly
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Best wishes to your Dad, glad he is doing better.
It is amazing that once the worst happens to you nothing can faze you (at least not as bad)..
Hugs, MaryLou
I hope your dad is feeling stronger. Hugs to you Wendy
Wishing you some peace and a speedy recovery for your Dad. Truly your friend, BarbaraWawa
It is our 4th Christmas...seems impossible doesn\'t it. But it is easier...I long for Alex...but I can enjoy things too. I hope your dad does well...take care...love and hugs...Karen
Many blessings to your Dad, to you and your family. Love to all, too. Peggy
I send prayers for your dad, and I hope Erica has a safe trip home. peace to you, Nora
Glad to hear that your dad is doing better. Keep up the good work, Ryan! You know he is looking after each and every one of you. Love you, my friend. Debbie
May peace and comfort wiggle their way into your heart this Christmas infused with Ryan\'s deep love for each of you. Glad to hear that your dad is doing better. That is a blessing, indeed. Gentle care dear friend. Love and hugs, Joanie
I hope your Dad will be OK. Our lives have been irrevocably changed forever. Enjoy your family, Love Susan
Hope your Dad continues to improve. Hi, Erica. My love to you both. Beth
Hope that all will work out for your Dad. Sending up a big prayer for him & your family...LOve & hugs, connie
Praying your Dad continues to improve, praying to Ryan thanking him for watching over you. Sending you big hugs and a little strength to get through the holidays. Lynette ~ Matthews mom
Kelly, I will be praying for your dad for a quick recovery from this recent surgery. I hope that you and Erica are doing well. Laura and I were talking about you guys the other day and how memorable our retreat was. We are just going through the holiday motions here. I do it mostly for my youngest daughter who just turned 16. She is still into all the hoopla. I will also make a Christmas meal here and hope Jared joins us. : ) May your Christmas be happy and peaceful. Regards to Erica! Love and Hugs, Diane
Kelly, I hope your Dad makes a full recovery...so glad I met you and Erica, she is a wonderful daugher and I\'m so happy she will be home for Christmas...Wishing you a peaceful holiday, Love, Pat
Kelly, I will keep your dad in my prayers and yes we are 1 year closer to our boys as the New Year comes. I wish you and your family the best hoilday you are able to have. Love to you and sweet Ryan, Linda